After a month or so of no contact I have found my experience with an NPD partner to be therapeutic and educational. Do you all think I am just continuing a trauma bond/disoriented/messing with my own head or does it make sense for me to look at this as a completely positive experience

2022.01.17 01:01 Few_Material5498 After a month or so of no contact I have found my experience with an NPD partner to be therapeutic and educational. Do you all think I am just continuing a trauma bond/disoriented/messing with my own head or does it make sense for me to look at this as a completely positive experience

For one thing it was a dance . I felll in love with what i saw in her eyes and I was often abusive trying to make her into something she was not . I was mean , petty and hardly a "victim" at the end so just want to get the victim/abuser dichotomy out of the way
Now I see her traits not only in my own "false-self" (as far as wondering if I am cluster B -certainly tells me I have some co-dependent and other issues - considering I had a psychotic break during our dating and it felt religious - still does in hindsight).
But my whole history is colored by what she taught me. I see these traits which I first did not understand, then saw as "evil" and finally , more appropriate for the modern world than I wanted to ever admit. I see how toxic my family is and my friends are , the cluster B in all of us seems to jump out at and cause me physical pain (obviously I mean my own first and foremost , not speaking from above)
Any advise on how i can determine whether this is an extension of the trauma bond or me continuing the work she started , falling further into the darkness and seeing it as insight? Is it plausible that this is real insight and how might I come about understanding ?
It's been just one month , Its been a long time since a "romantic" "relationship" destroyed me but this one did. I cannot ever see her again as it will kill me (substance abuse) but I will always miss my beautiful little predator. I hated her for a while and after much introspection I see her as a great teacher , just one who emanates toxic grief which I am not strong enough to bear
Any advise? Any resources? It is a clumsy but sincere question and I am quite lost
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2022.01.17 01:01 Arnadus [ATOMBULL] 3X Long Cosmos Token. Price ↘ -2.15% in 5 minutes

[ATOMBULL] 3X Long Cosmos Token. Price ↘ -2.15% in 5 minutes Discovered by TOP_2000_15_MIN_DOWN submitted by Arnadus to cryptopricesalerts [link] [comments]


2022.01.17 01:01 im50andsad Hi-🅱️oint > Glock

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2022.01.17 01:01 pie_pushin Not sure where to list this question but this group seems promising. A friend received this from a mechanized brigade group about 15 years ago. No idea what it is. Wondering if Reddit could once again save the day.

Not sure where to list this question but this group seems promising. A friend received this from a mechanized brigade group about 15 years ago. No idea what it is. Wondering if Reddit could once again save the day. submitted by pie_pushin to Military [link] [comments]


2022.01.17 01:01 AdIndividual6890 Any1 tryna trade add psn:ICEY_DUCKLIPSYT

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2022.01.17 01:00 TheRordonGamsay Is there a way ton play custom homes in oculus home?

I can't figure it out but I use to play created maps like silent hills PT, mini games, etc. but I don't know how to do it anymore, Also I thought there two oculus homes, the regular one, and the one where I can search for maps.
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2022.01.17 01:00 parisv1 Hi daddy, I'm available for you 😉 😈🍆💦

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2022.01.17 01:00 reddituserhere6 Index Opening Bell - January 17, 2022

Nifty:
Nifty Spot Opened for the day @18235.65 and now trading @18279.15
Yesterday's closing Price: 18255.75
Current Trend is : Bullish.
BankNifty:
BankNifty Spot Opened for the day @38212.55 and now trading @38466.25
Yesterday's closing Price: 38370.4
Current Trend is : Bullish
Trade with the trend.!
What is your view about markets today and why?
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2022.01.17 01:00 Wanderlandice Keys on keyboard not working

(Im not computer savvy whatsoever) I have a cheap HP laptop and overtime the keyboard thats built into it has slowly lost function in certain keys it started with just the two shift keys at the same time but has grown to be both shift keys, most of the number row, 4 on the keypad, and the windows key while the N key acts really inconsistently and sometimes doesnt work, sometimes registers 2 or 3 presses when I press it the same length as every other key press and sometimes registers half a second after I press it. Every once in a while all of them but the shift keys will miraculously start working again for a little bit before stopping again. Nothing seems visibly wrong to me under the keys and uninstalling the device and having windows automatically reconfigure it doesnt solve the problem. I dont what the problem could be or what else I could do to find out
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2022.01.17 01:00 siskosisilisko My almost 4 year old looked little and I melted.

This weekend was my infant’s first birthday, so we were at my MIL’s and all normal routines went out the window. Last night, it took me some time to get the now one-year-old to sleep and I was pretty tired. So I didn’t jump into bedtime for my preschooler. After lounging in the living room for a bit, he told me he wanted to go to bed. He was already in pjs (his only zip-up footie pajamas that he’s had since we started potty training him). We did the bathroom portion of bedtime, the kid was basically stumbling. So I told him we weren’t going to read books and tell stories, but I would still sing songs to him. Poor guy was exhausted, so he didn’t protest.
I felt guilty for not getting him to bed earlier, so I offered to put him into his bed at his grandma’s house. He’s getting heavy and I’m pregnant, so I usually try not to lift him too much. When I asked him if he wanted me to put him into his bed, he just put his little arms up like he would do when he was a small, non-talking baby.
I melted in that moment.
He communicates so clearly (not perfectly, but he’s come a long way) and he acts like such a big boy. I forget that being just under 4 years old, doesn’t mean he isn’t little.
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2022.01.17 01:00 ckregular [Meta] thoughts on flexing stomping ground in Lurrus burn for the SB?

I’m looking to play Lurrus burn in modern and I’m playtesting a slight twist right now. It works alright but I’ve only played less than 10 games with it.
The Maindeck is the normal 12 creature/28 spell shell with playset of the usual suspects and 2 skullcrack and 2 helix. I’m playing the 20 land version 6 fetches, 4 fast lands, 2 foundry, 4 sunbaked canyon + 1 fiery islet, however instead of 3 mountains I’m running 2 and a Stomping Ground.
In my sideboard, I’m thinking about running 3 prismatic vista and 3 destructive revelry in the 6 slots you’d normally see devoted to some combination of Path to exile + STS + Wea/tear. Prismatic looks super strong, and also has the added benefit of being able to hit nearly everything path or STS + Wea/Tear would likely be targeting , and gets planeswalkers. Albeit at sorcery speed, and it doesn’t get Urza’s Saga. Revelry does, though, so on the whole I feel covered against it.
What other issues do you see me potentially running into with this build over the RW version? Am I relying too much on my non-red colors? Am I wrong and I’m too weak to Saga/Titan this way? If I run the naya colors, should I lean into it more with Nacatal + Atarkas command?
Please share your thoughts. Also I’m just getting back into modern after a 2 year break and could use some pointers on updated matchup tips. I already ordered my Roiling Vortexes and Sanctfiers to update my paper.
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2022.01.17 01:00 dorkmax_executives "Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba - Entertainment District Arc" New Visual

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2022.01.17 01:00 PercPopper1 I just left the hospital, might need another liver

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2022.01.17 01:00 vikingdiplomat Leftovers ramen tonight. Thawed some duck stock, mushroom kombu dashi, blanched spinach, and some pickled radishes and carrots. also some leftover steak, and my wife made awesome eggs as usual.

Leftovers ramen tonight. Thawed some duck stock, mushroom kombu dashi, blanched spinach, and some pickled radishes and carrots. also some leftover steak, and my wife made awesome eggs as usual. submitted by vikingdiplomat to ramen [link] [comments]


2022.01.17 01:00 Envee-in-redd Taxes…?

I thought I was grasping how taxes worked with crypto but say you have Coin A for over a year ( no short term capital gains tax) but you have to swap it for coin B in order to cash out . You own coin B for 5 minutes when u sell it for USD…… this sale WOULD be subject to short term capital gains tax then correct ? If so that is kinda F’d….or am I not understanding this correctly at all . Thanks
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2022.01.17 01:00 Dismal_Traffic_6022 Sad but true

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2022.01.17 01:00 Stojokes Now that Ilia is finally in the game, is a spiral incoming?

They're finally put Ilia in the game next update and some people think it's a sign she's getting a spiral soon. If it is indeed on the way I hope it's a crit damage amp just cuz that's what my mind immediately jumped to.
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2022.01.17 01:00 Hansjeee 🥇Eindbaas Fap Discords • r/Eindbaas

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2022.01.17 01:00 Dirkem96 Please help a lowly Android user

So in my infinite wisdom, I downloaded an unfinished version of Unbound and I cant get to the 5th gym in Denhara City (there is not bridge) and the mission log tells me to go to a volcano. I think I finished this part of the game?
Can anyone walk me through how to download the save file I have for v1.1.3.1.gba and get into the new game? I have like 15 hours into it and I dont wanna restart. Also I have zero experience with this sort of stuff so thank you in advanced. Also, I use pizzaboy emulator
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2022.01.17 01:00 queshu22 Check

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2022.01.17 01:00 Ishkabob_9142 The watt is a unit of power or radiant flux. In the International System of Units, it is defined as a derived unit of 1 kg⋅m²⋅s⁻³ or, equivalently, 1 joule per second.

The watt is a unit of power or radiant flux. In the International System of Units, it is defined as a derived unit of 1 kg⋅m²⋅s⁻³ or, equivalently, 1 joule per second. submitted by Ishkabob_9142 to antimeme [link] [comments]


2022.01.17 01:00 M47774M Proud owner of a Parcel

Bought my 1st parcel yesterday. Great location, on a T intersection. Any suggestions on how to monetize it?
(My family and friends think I’m a sucker for buying it, they said the same when I bought a couple of BTC back in 2018, after the crash)
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2022.01.17 01:00 smartybrome QuickBooks Desktop vs QBO Multiple Currencies – Coupon Code: 70B1E4F80981871D788A

QuickBooks Desktop vs QBO Multiple Currencies – Coupon Code: 70B1E4F80981871D788A submitted by smartybrome to udemyfreebies [link] [comments]


2022.01.17 01:00 Regret_it_later [M19/PST] Looking for Accountability Buddy!

About me:
I'm looking for an accountability buddy to do daily check-ins with at a certain time, in hopes of enabling both of us to reach closer to our goals, and just being friends. I imagine us helping each other with discipline and motivation by discussing goals, roadblocks, and reminding each other of these when getting off track.
I'm a 19-year-old male from California [Timezone PST]
Computer science major at UC Berkeley (May add psychology as a double major). My primary interests are artificial intelligence and clinical psychology.
I love deep, emotional conversations and listening empathetically. I deeply value honesty, positivity, and compassion, and I strive to be uplifting, validating, and encouraging.
I'm an ENFJ/ENTJ
Big 5 personality breakdown:
-agreeableness: high normal
-openness: very high
-extroversion: high normal
-neuroticism: very high
conscientiousness: very high
Things I want to work on:
--Mainly I want to work on improving my consistency with sleep (ideal for me would be sleeping from 11 pm to 7 am) and studying (I often procrastinate and get behind, but I want to stay on track at least or be ahead). I also want to consistently exercise for 30 minutes at least each day, and meet my calorie goal.
--I may add other goals in (such as reading, socializing, and such)
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2022.01.17 01:00 DisastrousPlant0 Extended warranty

What's the best time for extended warranty out there? I'm in California if that matters, for some reason certain companies don't provide a warranty for California owners. Thanks in advance
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